We Got The Call!!!

Friday October 24, 2014 – we got the call.

The one you wait for from the moment you begin the adoption journey. The one that has someone on the other end telling you that after all the mountains of paperwork and months of waiting that you are getting ready to hear about and see your child’s face for the first time – in our case, our little boy.

It was warm and sunny and Brandon and I were both home doing things around the house. I think I was dusting or something when my phone rang. The fact that it might be our adoption agency telling us we had been matched truly never even crossed my mind. As soon as I saw the name I had to sit down and catch my breath. It didn’t even feel real. After 3 years from beginning the process (almost) it was finally happening – it had just seemed so far away for so long.

To be honest it still does feel surreal at times. Knowing you have a son that you can’t hold, kiss, hug or play with, thousands of miles away … it’s hard.

We can’t share much about him or show you his adorable face, but he is just that, adorable! He has the biggest brown eyes with long eyelashes, a shy smile, and is approximately 3 years old (his birthday is unknown).

So where are things now? Well the next step is a court date. Our paperwork is in Uganda now and hopefully being filed with the court sometime soon. The courts take several weeks off for the holidays, so we most likely will not hear anything until mid-January or so. Once we have a court date we can begin to make travel plans. That piece is definitely overwhelming! Anyone out there who has been and there and done that – email me all your advice!

Many people have asked how they can help, so we wanted to share a little bit about that too.

Obviously first and for most – prayer. For his health and well-being (physical + emotional), for smooth filing of our paperwork, affordable flights (as much as an international flight can be!), swift movement through the Ugandan legal system, wisdom for us in parenting this sweet addition to our family, and for Liv to adjust well.

Secondly, we have been saving over the last several years, but adoption fees are high and the recent referral fee required most of what we had left when we accepted the match. We have decided to do a tee-shirt fundraiser, and our good friend James came up with an awesome design incorporating one of my favorite verses on it:

Psalm 40:5
Many, Lord my God, are the wonders you have done, the things you planned for us. None can compare with you; were I to speak and tell of your deeds, they would be too many to declare.”

I love that he chose to include this verse – this beautiful truth – in the design.

We do serve a MIGHTY God who loves us so incredibly much and can truly do more than our human minds could imagine. My struggle through infertility and adoption has really allowed me to come to believe this at the core of my soul, and I will continue to cling to it now as this process is anything but easy and predicable.

If you feel led, we would love for you to have one of these shirts. They will be a soft-style T-Shirt and we have two different colors for you to choose from! We will be doing pre-orders on the shirts and they will ship in January. The shirts will cost $25 and 100% of the proceeds will go directly to help fund our adoption. The shipping is FREE! If you wish to make a donation greater than the cost of the shirts, you may do that by clicking the donate button below.

Thank you from the bottom of our hearts in advance for being a part of his story and helping to bring our little boy home.

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Christmas EP!

I’ve decided to put the Christmas EP that was released last week on iTunes and Spofity along with pretty much any and every other digital place you can buy or listen to music.

If you haven’t picked up the EP, please head over to one of these places and pick it up!

If you already have picked up the EP, then please head to iTunes and leave a review!  That would be stellar.

Lastly – I’ve been selling the digital download cards and have a few remaining.  Once these are gone, they are gone…these are great little stocking stuffers or random small gifts to give out during the holiday season.  You can buy cards by clicking on this link – BUY DOWNLOAD CARDS HERE

Now offering Guitar Lessons!

Im thankful for each opportunity I get to help teach guitar to you or your child.  Im going to begin opening up more slots for guitar lessons and would really love to work with you!  As most of you know, I love guitar, I love music in general, and I also love Jesus.  I’ve been playing guitar and leading worship now for over 10 years, and Im excited to be able to give back in this capacity!  My goal is to teach you or your child all about guitar and help you fall more in love with music!

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Relentless….My Journey with Anxiety and Depression

Relentless….this was the title of the message that I had the opportunity to give a week ago at Rivers Crossing Community Church.  Side Note – If you want to listen to/download the message, you can do so here – RC3 PODCAST.  It was a message on John 4 and the story of the woman at the well.  Pastor Paul asked me a couple months ago if I wanted to teach on this passage and almost immediately the Lord began telling me that it was time to share some of my story – my story of Anxiety and Depression.  You see, being in ministry and having the opportunity to hear a lot of stories and have the opportunity to pray over people – I’ve discovered that their are sooo many people struggling with mental illnesses – specifically with depression and anxiety.  And not only are they struggling with it, but they are also being fed lies from the enemy that they will never amount to anything, that they shouldn’t tell anybody or seek counseling because it makes them look weak, that they shouldn’t take medication b/c it might show a lack of faith, that God can’t use you and I just need to be very blunt because some of you need to hear this and receive it.  Those are lies from straight from the enemy and they are complete bull crap (I really wanted to use stronger language right there, but hopefully the word crap will suffice for now).

You see, just as Jesus came and met this Samaritan woman (in John 4) right where she was at in the middle of her mess and offered her Living Water and opened her eyes to see Him for who He really was that he wants to do the same for you this morning.  He is not finished with you.  He is a loving Father who cares deeply for His Children.

And so, here is my story (basically a transcript from my talk)….I hope its encouraging to you and if you have any questions or comments – you can comment on this post or you can email me personally – brandon@brandongilliam.com – Im a so thankful for the countless number of you that have thanked me for this message and share in this struggle with me – your encouragement simply means the world to me!

Id love to share with you how this passage has really been encouraging to me as I’ve been reading through it and studying it.  You see, about 6 years ago I was leading a Night of Worship at our Church back in SC.  It was a normal day and there was great anticipation for the night.  About the third song in, I began to have this weird sensation.  My head was spinning, and my knees felt very weak and it was all I could do to stay up on the stage and make it through the current song that was being led.  I started getting super hot, My palms got sweaty and I just felt like I was going to pass out.  It was a very new sensation for me, b/c I’ve never passed out in my life.  I couldn’t take it any longer, and so as we finished up the song I walked off the stage.  It was that night, that my journey with anxiety and depression began.  Now Im sure that it wasn’t just that night, but that night it manifested itself in a very real way and became a part of my life.  
And I remember early on really questioning God about this.  Is there some sort of sin in my life that is causing this anxiety?  Is my faith just not strong enough? Am I not praying enough?  And not only would I question myself, but there were other “churchy” people asking me these same things.  And not only questioning God, but also not accepting it.  I always considered myself to be a pretty tough dude and so I wasn’t going to admit to this struggle b/c I thought it wasn’t a very manly thing to do.  I was very good at keeping it inside, keeping it a secret.  There were times where there was nothing I could do to make myself feel better or fix the situation, but during those times God would teach me that my only hope was to rely soley on His strength and His power – and He’s definitely taught me a great deal about His character over these last several years.  
And so over these last 6 years, I’ve been on and off of different medications, I’ve been prayed over many times for healing, I’ve been in counseling – and I stand before you today to tell you that my journey with anxiety and depression is still going on.  Im on staff at a Church, I have the honor of leading over 1000 people in worship every week and at the same time I have a daily struggle with anxiety and depression.  Im just a normal guy who is walking through a lot of the same things that many of you are walking through, and yet God still chooses to use me and he wants you to know that you can be used too.  I wish I could tell you that I’ve been completely healed from my anxiety and depression, but the truth is I can’t.  Im still walking through it, still trusting in Jesus every day and believing that whether or not he chooses to heal me on this side of eternity or not – He is still good, He is still Sovereign, and I can still be used by Him to do great things in the Kingdom.   
I believe the Lord wants to encourage many of you this morning.  I believe that there are those you under the sound of my voice who are struggling with anxiety, depression, panic attacks, worry, fear and the enemy keeps telling you that you will never amount to anything, that you shouldn’t tell anybody or seek counseling because it makes you look weak, that you shouldn’t take medication b/c that shows your lack of faith, that God can’t use you and I want to tell you this Am that just as Jesus came and met this Samaritan woman right where she was at in the middle of her mess and offered her Living Water and opened her eyes to see Him for who He really was that he wants to do the same for you this morning.  He is not finished with you.  He is a loving Father who cares deeply for His Children.  And this AM you need to be reminded of His love for you!
And I believe that our response to these situations in our life is to worship.  I’ve done numerous talks on the power of worship and I believe it holds true in every circumstance.  Worship is a powerful tool in our spiritual journey.  And for me, in the moments that I’ve experience intense levels of panic and anxiety, or the lowest parts of depression – my only response is worship.  It goes against everything I think I should do, b/c I feel like i should internalize it and keep it in, but my response should be worship – Its because of worship that in some of those moments of intense panic I experience God’s perfect peace.  Worship absolutely crushes the enemy and all the lies that He tries to tell us.      
This morning we are going to close with worship, and I just want to encourage you to go for it.  No matter what you are walking through in your life – whether it be anxiety or depression, whether its some sort of sin in your life and now you are living with all kinds of guilt and shame – I believe God wants to meet you right where you are at and remind you this AM that His love will never fail, that He will never give up on you.  

New Song called I Am Yours – Free Download


This song was written by Brandon Gilliam for a series that was done at Rivers Crossing Community Church. The series was called Propel and it was all about celebrating what God has done in our House, and what He’s going to continue to do. Its also a call to surrender our lives to His perfect plan and for Him to truly set our hearts on fire for Him.

Worship Leaders – Download the Lyrics and Chord Charts for the song here – I am Yours

Im giving this song away as a FREE DOWNLOAD on Noisetrade.  You also have the option to leave a “tip”, so if the song is a blessing to you, you may or may not want to consider that!  Download the song below!

Lyrics and Music written by Brandon Gilliam

Produced by Brandon Gilliam and Joe Dunlap

Engineered and Mixed by Joe Dunlap

Mastered by Swaff

Drums – Jerome Obholz

Bass – Joe Dunlap

Guitars – Robbie Householder

Keys – Joe Dunlap

BGV’s – Robbie Householder and Joe Dunlap